I REALLY HATE MYSELF.

BIOCHEMISTRY II SUCKS.

TOMATO EGGS SUCKS.

I'M NOT COOKING FOR ANYONE.

GO ON, TELL ME MORE. MAKE ME LOSE MORE CONFIDENCE. THAT'S YOUR MOTIVE RIGHT.

GREAT. YOU HAVE ALREADY SHATTERED MY CONFIDENCE. TELL ME MORE. MAKE ME FEEL MORE MISERABLE. IT ISN'T ENOUGH.

QUESTIONS LIKE "ARE YOU OKAY?" ARE STUPID. OBVIOUSLY I'M NOT OKAY. WHATEVER YOU GUYS DO, MAKES ME REMIND ME OF HIM. COME ON. IT ISN'T ENOUGH. I'M HAVING A GREAATTT TIME REMINISCING HIM. I'M NOT USING GARLIC OR ONION OR SHALLOT ANYMORE. COOL. NO MORE IMAGES OF HIM IN MY MIND. GREAT. NO MORE TOMATO EGGS OR TOMATO RICE. NO MORE TOMATOES. I HATE THEM.

NO MORE FALLING SICK.
NO MORE NECKLACES.
NO MORE BABY MILO TEE SHIRT.
NO MORE DEPRESSION DUE TO STUDIES MATTERS.
NO MORE FILING.
NO MORE COOKING.
NO MORE MAKING MYSELF PRETTY.
NO MORE RED STUFFS IN MY ROOM.
NO MORE SINGAPORE FLYER.
NO MORE PRAWNING EVER IN MY LIFE.
NO MORE STUFFS.
NO MORE LOOKING AT PICTURES OF YOU AND ME TOGETHER.
NO MORE LOOKING AT YOUR SMS-ES.
NO MORE EMOTIONS.
JUST LEAVE ME ALONE OK?





I'm still feeling so hurt about it. Even though its been 2 months already.. It seems like its just yesterday.. I still don't understand why.. I know I'm not the best.. I'm trying to learn everything.. so that you won't find any more reasons for not wanting me back.. What did we do everything in the past together? Now whatever things I do, reminds me of you.. I really hate myself now.. Please tell me how to forget and let go.. Distance and time is making it even worse.. And there's no word from you.. Please tell me what to do.. Everything I do, reminds me of you.. Give me a solution.. Time doesn't solve this. IT DOESN'T. I don't want to end anything with you.. But I have to let you go.. I really admire Celia's courage...